Well it's the day after Halloween & I feel empty,disillusioned,and just plain pissed that I was at Show n Tel,not a new job or Salem Mass.(missing badly) New challenges need to come to me I got to think about some new roads to go down or maybe go down an old road more in a different direction but I just can't figure one out. But I know fourteen  years at the same job is a horror story for me as I feel the stagnation of my creativity & soul is starting to get to me in ways that are terrifying to myself going down that ugly road of desperation never occurred to me. Those thoughts disgust me to the core of my existence so  that will not be the way I make my exodus from this world no matter how depressed I get.